..and reaction

How M.Branton's blog appeared in my RSS reader

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One year after the poem

The poem written almost a year ago
ended with grandiose alter after
surviving all of that, one thing
after another, and again, one thing
after another...

It was only normal to develop {{grandiose
alter}} who was however in the need of
being acknowledged, embraced, and
listened to very carefully...
...just like all other alters before him
were... ... so [{(grandeous me)}]


Now all parts got acknowledged, embraced,
listened to carefully, by each other!!!

And can continue walking down the street
as person with personal worth - just like
any other person... ...on the street...

Our "Intel...al Alter" and his concepts

Our "Intel...al Alter" and his attempt to put all little concepts used by psychotherapists in a little map of therapy(ists)landia wonderland ;) here http://the-intellectual-alter.blogspot.com/2009/05/therapyistslandia-map-for-beginners.html

No more baby blanket

Being accepted and embraced enough times by other blogging friends - thank you dear friends - we feel we don't need the image of baby blanket ( blanket = "cloth surrogate for warm embrace"), anymore - and we decided to remove "baby blanket" background and change our blog's color and header image in order to reflect this change in us...

As our new header says, other alters feel warmly accepted and embraced by Samo who was accepted and embraced by Sam (i.e. who was in turn accepted by other bloggers' and internalized it).

Another one gets a blog of his own

This time it is our "icy cold intellectual one" who - we can see now - is not without feelings... Check it out - http://the-intellectual-alter.blogspot.com/

We feel we are able to let The (5 y.o.) Misunderstood One express himself in his own voice, as well

The (5 y.o.) Misunderstood One - one of our littles - got his own room in the blogosphere, designed today according to his needs and preferences, where he can write letters in his own voice.

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Today, as well, in password-protected post (the password being badonenotbadatall for the curious readers only :) ) the Bold One wrote the following (you still have to go to the protected post if you want to see the link removed here):

... today is the day when we feel we are able to let The “Bad” One (not to be confused with the Bold One) express his feelings in his own voice, at his own blog. Which is not unlike when a child in family can be trusted enough to be able to have his/her own room, and does not have to be in a crib in the corner of the parents’ bedroom, anymore.

So, we proudly present our "Bad" One's room/new blog made according to his/her own needs and preferences.

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Now, back to my news :)

Our little one, The Misunderstood One (short for The AbandonedByParents&MisunderstoodByForeigners One) wrote his first "Letter to himself"/other current selves at the new blog he just got.

Thank you - for giving me my own voice.

You're welcome, little one, it's the least thing we can do for you.

...

After writing my previous post

thanks to Castor Girl's support we managed to finish the website http://sites.google.com/site/GodApologizing2You/

One person found it helpful.

At least she is the only one who told me so.

If it helped only one (besides me)

to express the inexpressible feelings,

it was worth to go through all the fear we went through for it...


Thank you.


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Explanation:

There comes a moment in recovery process when no matter who says what and how many times it is just not enough to make a difference, because the whole community/society/world would have to apologize for not intervening at the time, and because the whole can not speak, it is the symbolic representative of the whole - see Durkheim's sociological definition of God - who can make the difference.

The website is all about making the needed difference.

Does it make any difference to you?

I'm terribly afraid...

I am terribly afraid to post a link to yet another (the promised and now almost finished) website, which is an elaboration on the idea noted in our Note No. 4. We made all necessary steps in order that anyone's feelings connected to concept of omnipotency would not to be offended in any way, but still there is a feeling of fear from possible repercussions coming from the (all-powerful) father, felt by our inner scared child alters.

Maybe we shall not post it... but it is the very scared child alters that might benefit from making the site visible the most - because if/when at least one other person's scared child alter finds it healing and good, the shared experience of healing effects would make them even stronger then individual experience only, BUT there is still a lot of fear. We need some external reassurance that it is ok to post the link.

Special and general theory of dissociativity :)

Below you can see what was inspired by BTC's (thank you BTC) and her comment to my previous post in which our courageous (bold) alter came up with the question who do you love when you love a multiple person? It was a very special question, in every sense :)...

Now, below, you can see a more general question that is not limited to love, but includes other emotions felt by dissociative person in general.... kind of... "general" theory of dissociativity that is answering the following question.

The general question is... what does which alter (belonging to the first dissociative person) happen to feel in relation to other alters either belonging to the same dissociative person (i.e. intra-personally) or/and belonging to the other dissociative person ( i.e. inter-personally) ?

My inner sociogram (<- click to see Wikipedia article about sociograms) would look something like that - see the drawing below:

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Castor Girl's comment http://castorgirl.wordpress.com/2009/05/09/host-personality-secrets/#comment-544 reminded us that we can make it better... so we decided to update the post with the bidirectional image above.