What kind of messages the alters happen to convey through the visual side of their blogs?
The bold alter's blog has a visual template showing a car (as a metaphor for the bold alter?) coming out from the darkness through a tunnel he had to dig all by himself almost alone, illuminating the path with his own lights boldly.
The words you are reading now, however, are written on a pale blue baby blanket that usually covers babies. Babies are soft, they have no teeth to bite and be bold, and in order to protect themselves, all a baby can do is merely cry and scream, nothing else. In other words - baby is the vulnerability at its extreme. That is the message from the visual side of the blog, as well.
I can afford to show it because the bold alter's job is/was to defend me and other vulnerable alters.
I was thinking of other bloggers, too.
For example, when David was saying in his reply to the BTC's post that he thinks his thing is vulnerability, we immediately connected what he said with our earlier subconscious impression of visual side of his blog as image of fortresses with very thick and very smooth (no ruptures in them, i.e. no signs of vulnerability) walls, defending the vulnerability.
-------------------------- (<-- the line which is semi dividing the post is a visual representation of (semi permeable) division serving the function of dividing and thus preventing one alter's memories/associations/emotions/trauma to be piled upon the rest of memories/associations/emotions/trauma in a person, which is *not* a failure, dear Richard Kluft
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see the video saying it),
but a coping mechanism solely...)
An Update written by the Bold Alter:
I would like to add that the visual side of Kathy's blog is pretty cold and even clinically aseptic in comparison to mine ;)
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Ok, we're a bit worried about what our blog says about us now... :)
ReplyDeleteAfter reading this we thought about our flat and how it represents us. It's brick with security locks on all windows and doors (need for security both physical and psychological); while the furniture is simple and purely functional (no frills, nothing to stand out or be noticed). The flat mirrors our need to be invisible and perfect - everything is hidden away...
On one level it's interesting to see how our psychology shows; but on others it's a little scary how obvious it is to those who know what to look for - are we ever really invisible?
Take care...
Purely functional furniture has always been our first choice, and for the same reason - to not reveal anything personal!
ReplyDeleteIn other words to stay invisible.
So I understand you.
The visual side of your blog seems task-oriented, it shows image of a puzzle in perspective and it congruent with the verbal side which is saying "Working on putting the jigsaw back together". It acknowledges there is a work to be done, and it does so in impersonal style which does not create a need to be (too much and too publicly - as in my case) bold in order to protect the (too much) revealed vulnerability. You chose a smoother path to integration then we did and we envy you a bit. Ours is a bit more rough...
Please don't envy us. It may look as if we are quite integrated and "together", but that's not the case. I (B or Buffie) am the one who writes a majority of the blog and have the advantage that I can communicate with the main protectors on each floor of our internal house. But we're still very separate. We find polyvore sets done that I don't know about, lose more than half of our therapy sessions, find that One has replied to some of your posts... We struggle every day just like so many others.
ReplyDeleteThe psychology of colours is interesting - just the different blue between Kathy's blog and this blog show quite different characteristics. Kathy's template has quite a cold blue, while this one is a softer blue.
Have you seen United States of Tara? It changed my opinion of Dr Kluft as an expert consultant quite dramatically. If they didn't follow his "expert advice" he should have resigned as the shows consultant.
ours is pretty simple, lol... shades of grey, with a background of variously interconnected and one-inside-another boxes, and a hazy drawing of a girl.... can u say, 'vagueness'? lol ... lack of clarity, compartmentalism, etc.
ReplyDelete@ castorgirl - I can agree with you, the expert adviser has to resign. And not only resign, he has now an opportunity to ride on the wave now by joining the protest of DIDers in order to educate lay public, explaining more precisely what DID is, and what it is not!
ReplyDelete@ Vague - yes -I can see the 'vagueness' in the background, however in the front I can also see a woman's face coming out from the vagueness and becoming clear and beautiful, as beautiful as the calligraphic letters saying "The Search for Clarity - Discovering our True destiny among the vague mist of one dissociative life - The Vague Collective".